Sunday, 02 April 2006

Impulsivity

I can't explain it, but despite setting out to get a lot of work done this weekend, I failed miserably. Instead, I went to a recital, went to church with Ben, talked to my parents and my brother, caught up on other homework that isn't even due for awhile, and went to The Gathering. And I stayed for the time of singing after The Gathering officially ended. Why? I don't know. But I have a theory.

I don't feel like I've been keeping God first. I did well on praying on a regular basis for awhile and then got completely thrown off, especially when break arrived. Then it seems life became difficult this week-getting sick with nasty junk in my throat, a bad piano lesson, getting stressed out thinking about everything due before the end of the semester, and the list goes on.

I've been praying to get back on track. I hadn't even planned on going to The Gathering tonight. Trygve wasn't speaking and that's typically a deterrent for me-I like our Dean of the Chapel and his messages are good. But I just felt "called" to go. I did, and I felt compelled to stay. It seemed like God was saying, "No, Tyler. Don't leave yet. Not yet." I'm glad I didn't leave. It was good to stay with the others and spend some time singing praises to Him. It made me remember: God must always come first. He won't have it any other way and it shouldn't be any other way. Needless to say, I left Dimnent Chapel refreshed and ready for a new week. I know things will come together somehow, some way, if I trust Him.

Interesting fact: Hope College students give some of the finest hugs around. (Addendum) One of them that gave me one is too tall to hug back so I was basically encased. It was kind of a strange experience but it made me think of something; that's kind of how it is with God. He's so much bigger than we are and so much greater that it's pretty much impossible to reciprocate the kind of love He shows us. So we just give Him our hearts, let Him encase us completely, with His love, do our best to love Him back, and be appreciative of it all.

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as you may (or may not have) noticed, I got there late. I got there for part of the after worship, and that was AWESOME! I wasn't gonna come, but God kept telling me to go and I'm glad I did.

E

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